Stunning Tanjung Pesona

Well, hello, you know what? the most annoying thing is when I can't get connected to wireless nor modem in one place.

Frankly speaking, I really would love to share you about the second place I have visited for teacher training. It’s quite near from Belitung actually, a place we call Tanjung Pesona in Sungai Liat, Bangka. Should I say wow first? Yeah, sure, it’s such a wonderful stunning place to have a honeymoon :D. But, see I have been here for learning, what did they say? Learning to be a better teacher who has a good competence and capability in English and teaching methods, ugh, whatever. It’s on November 25-29, 2013.

Despite of the fact that my mood was not good, I have enjoyed this place a lot. See, although the teachers and I came late at the first day, we got a beautiful room that straightly faces the beauty of the beach. It’s like dreaming you know? We even imagined to wear a gown then take some poses in the stairs or around this amazing view. Ah, I wish I could attach the pictures here.

There are always many things to learn. It’s like feeling the breeze when you want to feel it. I mean when you feel it then you will get something to dig up, but when you ignore that surroundings, you simply let every aha moment away then busy with your own unimportant thought.

Well, well, the goal of a training is always about gaining various new ideas and knowledge, but still having fun has become a part that is quite important. Let me show you how we enjoy our time being here, 

Swimming and screaming in the sea, ah, see these seven dwarfs, oops seven angels were swimming in the edge of the day,

Hey, where were the two angels? :D they were still running to join us. 

And, here are our fine dining,

After dinner, it must be singing and or dancing program. Many of us are good at them. Well yeah, I've got to take my lunch first, see ya :)

Janji yang Belum Tertunai

Promise is a promise, aku bukan tipe orang yang mudah ingkar janji, dari yang janji yang paling imut hingga besar dan urgent. Meski sesekali lupa membuat beberapa janji tak tertepati sesuai waktunya.

Janji tersulit untuk ditepati adalah janji pada diri sendiri, biasanya target-target untuk pencapaian diri yang lebih baik. Jauh lebih mudah membayar janji pada orang lain, karena ada tenggat, karena ada perasaan tak nyaman saat berinteraksi dengan orang tersebut. Bagaimana dengan diri sendiri? Karena diri terus menoleransi keterlambatan, terus memaafkan hingga beberapa melayang begitu saja, tak keruan lagi ada dimana. Hingga kadang tak terasa bahwa beberapa cara sudah membawa diri jauh terlupa, sudah membawa diri terzalimi kian hari. Usaha menjadi lebih baik itu sebenarnya mudah juga murah tapi menjadi buruk memang tidak perlu modal dan keyakinan besar, cukup dengan banyak berdalih maka lama-lama ia akan mengkristal, menjadikan diri layaknya diarahkan olehnya, tak terkendali.

Suara jauh di seberang sana kemarin mengingatkanku pada sebuah janji yang belum tertunai. Suara pemicu rindu itu membuatku berpikir panjang semalam suntuk sambil mengerjakan ini itu, hingga pagi ini masih terngiang di kepalaku. Ah, aku merasa terdesak oleh keadaan hingga sengaja melupakan janji itu. Aku memberi tenggat yang terlalu kendor, hingga pemaafan demi pemaafan kujadikan alasan untuk berlagak lupa. Jauh didalam hatiku, aku tak yakin mampu. Aku sadar pemenuhan janji ini sangat tidak mudah, konsekuensi dibelakangnya teramat panjang dan rumit untuk diselesaikan satu demi satu. Itulah mengapa aku berlagak damai dan nyaman pada pilihan-pilihanku saat ini. Tapi suara itu, suara itu menyiratkan lebih dari dukungan moril, suara yang menjanjikan akan menopang semua kepedihan dan kesulitan yang akan aku jalani saat aku menetapkan hati memilih jalan ini, memilih menunaikan sebuah janji. Ah, sungguh kukatakan padamu aku belum siap, aku belum siap meneteskan air mata dan bersimbah keringat untuk itu. Aku belum siap memasuki dunia yang sangat jauh berbeda yang tentu memerlukan lebih banyak kontemplasi daripada sekedar khayalan singkat tak bermutu. Aku belum ingin menghabiskan waktu dalam ruang dan waktu dengan cara berbeda dan aku tahu sebagian besar mengikat, mendesak.

Apa yang harus kulakukan? Saat rasanya bangun pagi terasa berat karena ada teguran berbagai nada mengikuti, membisikkan bahwa ini sudah saatnya, ini sudah waktunya beranjak dari fase kehidupan ini, fase kehidupan yang sudah terlalu nyaman untuk ditinggalkan. Aku, tergugu. 

I Hear Your Voice

I've just watched another stunning Korean drama, "I hear your voice". I was not interested at first, see the tittle is not attractive and rather silly actually. Sometimes, Korean dramas or songs use somewhat odd expressions to entitle their works.

This was recommended by my sister. She said you are gonna love this film, so I watched the first episode than simply forgot it for a long time. I was not sure that I would love it, also I had many schedules for earning my living.

Let me say, this drama is fantastic, especially for those who want to enrich their knowledge about law. There are many terminologies and law cases, so finally this film could kick my stereotype away. The story was begun by the childhood of the characters. Everything was started in the court, the whole life of this film.

Here the main character of this film. Jang Hye Song, an attorney. She is really messy woman (ugh, do I live like her), she eats various instant foods, never cares about household, and really love being single. She can't easily passionate with her jobs although she studies hard for being what she wants. Her job is simply boring because she prefers to feel that way until she becomes a government lawyer and meet Mr. Cha, who is energetic about working, she changes.. Well, should I say some people don't really work in their life, especially those who can get monthly salary without being controlled whether they work or not. Hmm... In positive side, this woman loves her mom much in different way of course, until her mom dies because of the revenge of a mad man.

Ms Seo, a public prosecutor. If we look for the first glance, she looks like a perfect woman, ever. She is raised in a very fine family. She is cool, smart, and tidy, and no wonder she is beautiful, arrogant in some ways. But, you know, almost in Korean dramas this type of lady will be defeated by kind of previous one, messy, silly, but pure. I love her character by the way.

Ah ya, there are always the princes, and the good news is Korean is fair, there will be two men if there are two ladies :), that's not the important part of this story.

I love this film, that's why I spent my two nights to watch instead of finishing my semester duties :D, but I thought better for me to finish this first than I can come to another work, aha that's my excuse. I am always amazed by the way Korean people promote their countries through art. See, almost everyone knows their drama, music, or fashion. They work hard for this (I read it in a mag I bet). Hmm, is our country known by Korean? ah, that's a ridiculous question in this Saturday night. Well, for you who plan to take law as your major, just watch this movie for your references :), enjoy.

I am angry

Again and again, I meet this kind of people. I wonder why are there many people who don't want (know) how to do their jobs? Is it a legal way being that proud of being a former one then let the new generation does then s/he can copy paste her jobs? Or it is a right time to say "enough for me to learn"? How could?

How could we call them professional if they don't even know what to manage about their jobs. Those who say I am too busy to do all the administrations or those who are proud using foreign language (their major) but do a lot mistakes without being afraid, and no willingness to learn and to fix their mistakes. Again I wonder.

Sometimes I think, maybe it's the institution who let their students get their bachelors so easily, formally graduate as long as they already done their researches even though in many cases the researches are also fake, another copied work, agh. I hate this. I hate all those lazy people who are going around in this world, especially those who are too much confident about that stupidity. Ok, enough, my mood has turned into a huge anger.

Stuck

Sometimes, I wonder why is it harder to write (by a deadline) than write freely what I want to say? I could write any short essays or texts for my teaching materials only in a minute or two, moreover pour my ideas, feeling, or other emotional pieces here. 

Somebody asked me this afternoon to write my journey in a brief essay, but it's really hard to find any proper words to say...ugh. It also happens many times when my friends asked me to join a collaborative writing, such delivering our teaching process or else in a cozy way. Hmm, still wondering, what's going on with this mind?

To write a formal essay, I used to need more than a week to find a good hook, make a brainstorm, write, revise, and so on. Surreal. It's just annoying that cause me to think (rethink) my future career to be a professional writer (:D) such an odd dream huh if I look at the way I write, or if I notice my workings recently. Neither becoming a scientific writer nor a fiction author bothers me a lot. I never encourage myself that much to run in this path. I only write when I love doing so, sharing in my blogs, fb, or my goddess secret diary :) I tried to read all the books related in my own, do anything that can improve my writing but I never take any formal training or involve in a great writers group which will help me much, could be. Hmm, it might be hard to do because I don't struggle to be like what I'd like to imagine. It appears...stuck.

Love Today? No Doubt :)

What a hectic day.

The school is going to hold a huge event tomorrow so that everyone has been busy this week, especially today. We are not only preparing the things but also making sure that every single thing is alright. See, I had to spend more than two hours cleaning all the goblets this morning, arranging them in the right order then wandering back and forth. Not only that, I got to go to the market, looking for a lot of medicines and healthy stuffs. Hey yeah, I met many policemen in the street, twice actually. They examined the licenses document, thanks God, I could pass easily (sstt...I forget to re-register my driving license, ugh my dad will be angry if he knows this).

After school, there were still many tasks to do, I had three sessions of English course at home, means shorter break and rest. Besides, one of my student would like to consult the agenda in English since she is going to be the master of ceremony tomorrow. It merely reminds me to the moment where I used to deliver some sequences of events. Ah, I was good at that thing at that time :') We arranged the structure of the sentences together, choosing the best ones to be presented. 

Teaching and sharing are always fascinating as long as my condition is good. Ow yeah, I got a piece of birthday cake from my cute student because her daughter celebrated her birthday, and it's her mother's cooking, nice. It's like a cup of water in the middle of this busy day. Eating the cake till the last piece together was awesome, oase uh? :)

Kurikulum 2013: Model Raport

Tidak hanya pendekatan pembelajaran yang berbeda pada kurikulum ini, penilaiannya pun berbeda. Saya katakan konversi nilai ini ruwet, karena dari nilai puluhan dirubah ke skala 1-4 lalu diberi predikat. Hmm, yang jadi wali kelas akan mengalami masa-masa sulit (weh, being complicated is a part of my life). Penilaian terdiri dari tiga aspek (mirip dengan KTSP), terdiri dari aspek pengetahuan, keterampilan, dan sikap.

Pada kurikulum tingkat satuan pendidikan skala nilai yang digunakan adalah 0-100 untuk aspek kognitif, dan A,B,C, dan D untuk aspek afektif. Pada kurikulum ini skala nilai yang dipakai untuk aspek kognitif dan psikomotor 1 hingga 4, seperti nilai kuliahan. Nilai terendah adalah 1,00 atau D dan tertinggi A atau 4,00. Sedangkan aspek afektif per mata pelajaran dinilai dengan SB = Sangat Baik, B = Baik, C = Cukup, K = Kurang.

Nilai puluhan di konversi ke skala 1-4 dengan cara dibagi 100 lalu dikali 4, hasil konversi kemudian diberi predikat sebagai berikut untuk aspek pengetahuan dan keterampilan:

A	3,67 – 4,00	C+	2,01 – 2,33
A-	3,34 – 3,66	C	1,67 – 2,00
B+	3,01 – 3,33	C-	1,34 – 1,66
B	2,67 – 3,00	D+	1,01 – 1,33
B-	2,34 – 2,66	D	Kurang dari sama dengan 1,00

Sedangkan tabel skala sikap sosial adalah:

No	Skor peserta didik	Predikat	Nilai Kompetensi
1	3,84 – 4,00	A	Sangat Baik
2	3,66 – 3,83	A-
3	3,34 – 3, 65	B+	Baik
4	3,00 – 3,33	B
5	2,66 – 2, 99	B-
6	2, 34 – 2, 65	C+	Cukup
7	2,00 – 2, 33	C
8	1,66 – 1, 99	C-
9	1,34 – 1, 65	D+	Kurang
10	1,00 – 1,33	D

*Batas ketuntasan Sikap adalah 2,66 atau predikat Baik :)

Ugh, pusing kan? Lumayan, saya sampai harus menjelaskan berulang kali ke orang tua murid tentang proses dan perubahan penilaian ini. Beberapa orang tua hayyu aja untuk yang sudah pernah kuliah tapi beberapa menatap dengan tatapan kosong hingga saya jelaskan singkat saja, kalau nilainya dibawah B berarti anak bapak/ ibu tidak lulus mata pelajaran dan jika terdapat tiga nilai dibawah B dalam ketiga aspek diatas maka peserta didik tidak naik kelas. Mari kita berjuang, fighting :)