It's Just...Hard

It's always hard to start a new thing. Whatever it is, wherever it takes.

I wonder why today is a kind of running slow and heavy. It's like you get such a great burden in your small head.

Not only when you first come to a new place with many strangers around, but also when you are in the middle people you know but your heart is not there, it's double, more complicated to be controlled.

My friend says, it's difficult to be somebody who change her routines into something else. Look at this, you always have somebody to talk to, to share with, but you must walk away then stay still in similar place with nothing happened.

Hm, the problem of 5th kids with 20's are sometimes quite the same, nor the solution. They both can't stay away from those they love. They rely on those people, then cry when they lose them.