The worse day, ever.

Hidup kalau kau dikata susah, ya susah, pun sebaliknya. Ada aja yang bikin nyesek di hati. Apalagi jika pahi sudah dimulai dengan teramat buruk, biasanya serentetan kegiatan berikutnya ikutan buruk, gaje deh.

Berhubungan dengan manusia egois itu memang sesuatu, orang yang suka sesuka hati, merasa benar sendiri, suka semena-mena dengan orang lain. Ini nih yang disebut anti eksistensi makhluk lain. Eleh, akibat tontonan jam 3 apa 4 yah tentang pro eksistensi toleransi, yang ceramah banget, ga penting.

Kalau mood lagi bagus, mau ada manusia jenis apapun, hayyo aja. Cuman ni mood juga kadang ga stabil, suka cenderung naik turun drastis kayak dolar juga. Tergantung suasana, baper dong. Well, ngomongin orang egois, bukan berarti yang nulis udah perfecto anti egoisme yak. Ada juga saatnya all the things is mine. Cuman akhir2 all the things are supposed to be others. Sometimes I miss my own self. Agh where is she completely gone huh? 

Pagi buruk padahal hujan pertama di pagi hari, biasanya saya suka. Kali ini beda, ada sesuatu yang membuat hujan tak baik hadir di pagi ini. Bukannya menolak rejeki, cuman deg udah ga bersyukur aja ni hati gegara hujan. Semua perjalanan pagi ini sangat tidak menyenangkan. Seandainya hidup bisa dikontrol dengan tangan sendiri, bahkan bangun jam 3 pagi pun tak membuat bisa hadir tepat waktu, apalagi teramat pagi, sigh. Even when I wanted to try to be better, the world seemed not supporting. 

At work, it's getting worse. Ketemu orang-orang nyebelin, lebih gaje, ga tau mana yang harus dilakukan mana yang tidak. Mana yang harusnya ini lalu itu, agh entah, ini ni mood yang paling saya ga suka. Marah. I hate being angry. Anger is just bad. And it is. Berlanjut hingga sekarang, hingga detik ini, hingga jam berdetak detak, plus perut keroncongan. And I can't find choco in my pocket. Better I scream out loud.

A Letter to God

Dear God,

I am absolutely feeling blue. You said there would be many ways to achieve what you want, as long as you keep fighting, never give up. I do, I did, and I have done it. I always underline it in my mind, that I have to struggle for something that I want, especially things that will be beneficial for others, not only me.

I have knocked many different doors, hoping that they will let me in, getting closer to my huge dream. But, I fall. Yeah, they did let me enter the room, but after I set up my expectation, I got dump. I know trying once won't be enough. So, I try many, a lot. See, those doors kicked me to a very minus start, again and again.

I am sure it sounds more like complaining, but somehow in certain conditions, I just want to surrender. All those wise words I have built in my minds can't barely help. Now, it's like no more energy or braveness to start.

Hmm,

Me

Ngomongin Soal Narasumber

Okay, makin sering menghadiri seminar, workshop, atau diklat, makin sering dipertemukan dengan berbagai jenis narasumber. Narasumber atau pembicara ini bisa saja berasal dari pusat, propinsi atau lokal. Asal tidaklah masalah jika pembicara benar menguasai materi yang disampaikan, tidak terlihat ragu, atau malah mencari alibi melakukan tugas lain yang tidak terarah.

Ok, ini cuma opini pribadi, no offense.
1. Keep talking no matter what.

Tipe pertama adalah tipikal wanita dan pria penyuka ceramah. Pembicara model ini akan berbicara dalam dua kategori, pertama berbicara dengan cara membaca slide, only. Yang kedua bercerita ala monolog tentang materi. Sebagian dari tipe ini bisa dibilang sangat menguasai materi cuma terlalu monolog dalam cara menyampaikan saja. Or ada juga yang sebenarnya bingung mau ngomong apa, sehingga beliau fokus sekali pada slide, tanpa dikurangi, mungkin sedikit ditambah.

Untuk tipe ini, ada yang berbicara tanpa memperhatikan pemirsa, situasi, panasnya udara, de el el, pokonya keep talking, yang penting kewajiban menyampaikan selesai. Ada juga yang lumayan interactive, yang ngeh kalau orang-orang di belakang udah pada bosan.

2. Tasks are the most effective guns.

Ada lagi yang terlalu suka ngasih tugas. Belum seberapa ngomong udah sibuk aja nyuruh bagi kelompok, bagi ini itu. In my view, ini tipe yang terburu-buru. Tentu menarik langsung kerja jika info yang disampaikan sudah cukup dan jelas. Tugas akan menyenangkan jika petunjuk yang diberikan jelas dan bisa diikuti. Kalau cuma ngasih tugas terus bahas bersama, kok kayaknya mending belajar di rumah yak.

3. I know you are there.

Ah, tipe ini ni yang makin langka. Memahami materi dengan baik dan menyampaikannya pun sangat interaktif. Sehingga sesekali dua dia keliru pun tak masalah. Pembicara ini menunjukkan bagaimana cara sesuatu bekerja baru memberi tugas. Tidak hanya itu, dia juga sangat suka membantu.

😴😥Kapan-kapan dilanjutkan, ngantuuuuk.

Makin Pelupa

Duuuuh kesssssseeeeeeel, sehari aja coba tanpa lupa tentang sesuatu. Akhir-akhir makin pelupa dengan banyak hal, lupa ngambil uang, lupa naroh kunci, lupa naroh barang kecil lainnya. Pagi ini keliling gara-gara lupa ngambil kunci sama suami. Hadeeeh.

Awalnya sempat takut, khawatir ni otak jangan-jangan ada yang salah, salah sambungan atau pernah kebentur? Hoho. Browsing sana sini, langsung bernafas
lega. Ga ada yang salah, cuman overloaded aja dengan buanyaknya tanggung jawab yang harus diemban. Dari subuh sampai sebelum jam 7 ngurusin baby cute unyu unyu yang ga mau lepas dari ibunya, kemana mana ikut, nyuci mau digendong, masak ikut juga, maunya menggelayut manja atau at least ibunya duduk dekat dia, rada screwed up gimana gitu, tangan cuma dua, tapi semua harus diselesaikan. Kadang yang prioritas banget yang dikerjakan, cuci popok, masak nasi, masak bubur, mandiin baby, siap-siap. Di tempat kerja, all the things seem like to blow up, buanyaaaaak banget yang harus dikerjakan, seperangkat administrasi ditambah jam berdiri yang full sampai sore.... aggggh bisa jadi kayak amoeba, membelah diri jadi tiga aja pasti semua beres.

Tuhan, kasih tambahan kekuatan dong, terutama di kepala ini biar ga pelupa lagi.

Sail Tomini: A School Visit

There is always a 'sail ...' event passing the island I am living in. This year is Sail Tomini, I am sure it is somewhere around east of Indonesia, like Wakatobi or Raja Ampat.

A little bit different from years before, there is a formal school visit this year. Last year, I only met two sailors ( can I say sailor anyway?). Well, all these foreigners live in the sea, simply reminds me to a book of Ernest Hemingway which unluckily still unfinished read status, yet. They were american and they were spouses, so we just shared one another in a small group of students.

Today was awesome because everyone could get involved. Some of them came to our school, to observe the school, look around I bet. We were well-prepared as a result of an order to do so. So, there were many performances from our cool students. I am thinking to open an art school, like Dream High thing, because my students are great artists.

We welcomed them with poetry, "pantun" that made them a bit confused, hoho..it won't be easy to understand. Then Beripat Dance, Campak Dance, and Antu Bubu. I guess everybody was having fun, I hope so.

 

Bismillah: A moment to start from another minus 0.0

I am thinking about a curve or graph, or chart... or else which shows how life is going up and down in some ways. Unpredictable, but amazingly could be passed one by one, whether it is hard or too hard..huft.

Right now, I am sure I am in a point of eager to start from minus, I have messed some things up so to reach this goal I will start over. Sadness won't help. The most important thing is having many high dreams are free, not even need to pay for a penny, so why bothers?

Opening many doors, hoping one will friendly say hi and let me in. I believe I can say it's possible. Every single thing is possible as I love to struggle for striving. Let's move.

Scientific Approach in Learning

Here is one of hottest issue recently. It has emerged as result of the launch of new curriculum. This approach focuses on how teaching material and process become more scientific, using empirical fact, logic phenomenon, or rational value.

I am trying to simplifize this for my own interest. Reading some articles, books, and technical clues rather makes me spinning around. To break it into some pieces, I would like to concern on the process of learning would be done applying this approach. The process goes to three focuses, indeed, those three stuffs are important, attitude (know why), knowledge (know what?), and skill (know how).

By looking at these three objects, the teacher is supposed to create a productive, innovative, creative, and affective learning. Still, the aim of this is to produce students who are balanced both in soft and hard skills.

It has some steps need to be done in teaching and learning process which are: observing, questioning, associating, experimenting, and networking. Actually, I have read some previous approaches that let students to think critically or involved in a problem-solving. In short, this is also aimed to make students can identify, compare, analyze, evaluate and understand a topic clearly. Furthermore, students can apply their knowledge, use it in their daily life. See, today there are a lot of people who know how something should be but prefer to avoid their knowledge.   

There are three methods which support scientific approach: discovery learning, project based learning, and problem based learning. These methods

Knowledge	Skill
	Abstrak	Konkrit
Faktual	Discovery Learning	Discovery Learning
Konseptual	Discovery Learning	Discovery Learning
Prosedural	Discovery Learning Problem Based Learning	Discovery Learning Problem Based Learning
Metakognitif	Discovery Learning Project Based Learning Problem Based Learning	Discovery Learning Project Based Learning Problem Based Learning